I pledge my commitment to the Blog For Mental Health 2013 Project. I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others. By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health. I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma.
Reading through the Freshly Pressed, I ran across this blog. I have a keen interest in breaking the stigma that comes with Mental Illness and bringing Mental Health issues into the open. After reading about this campaign and looking through this blog, I had to get involved. Check it out over at A Canvas of the Minds.
I live with a Mental Illness every moment of every day. I have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder accompanied by PTSD and anxiety. I wasn’t always this way. I know how it feels to be happy and experience pure joy. I remember the anticipation and excitement of the new. I wish I was capable of being as organized as I once was. I know the difference and I don’t feel those things anymore. My brain doesn’t work properly. But it use to.
It is difficult to describe as mental illness is subjective and can present in so many ways. For me it is like always having an extra fifty pounds on my back while constantly walking uphill without a plateau. It is exhausting, it is a struggle some days to move forward, it is never being able to catch my breath. My thoughts are out of sequence and my perception is messed up. For me it is the feeling of failure over and over. I can’t control my moods. I am not just an asshole. I really can not control outbursts of rage, anger or weeping sometimes. Really. The scariest part is not knowing what I said or did and being unable to connect feelings of emptiness to anything in my life. I have not been able to work in over two years. Every day life stresses send me over my edge.
But it is not just me who suffers. the worst is watching my family suffer. Knowing I am the catalyst to the looks of fear and disappointment on my children’s faces just fuels the mental illness fire and makes the disease worse. Everyone is affected by mental illness. I mean everyone. It is time to talk. To be open and honest and stop judging. To just listen and be a friend.
Check out this campaign…pass it on. Let’s open this up, show people they are not alone and being afraid of this or afraid to express is the just the fear of the unknown.
I am suppose to sponsor 5 followers to do the same – I can’t figure that part out….
I challenge EVERYONE who know me to join this campaign and sponsor 5 people that you know to do the same.